Originally Posted by J_9
You are worried about telling the police and ruining his life? What about the fact that he has ruined yours already?
What about the baby boy? As a survivor of abuse, don't you think that you should tell someone so you can save that baby from being abuse too? That poor baby cannot do it by himself, he needs someone to speak for him and only you, the one that the abuse was committed on can do that for him.
Yes, writing it down is very therapeutic, you may find that starting a journal will be very healing also.
Please, do not do anything to harm yourself, you are your best friend. Now pick up that HEAVY phone and call someone who can really help you.