I have been with this man on and off for 3years it has been nothing but heartache for me. I tried to make it work for all the wrong reasons, believing what could never be too. I taken him back even after he betrayed me by cheating I caught him in so many lies, he has no respect for my feelings I know it is not right. I am so good at giving advice, but I suck at taking my own. I have also been in therapy for 4 years prior to this because I always give my everything to men who abuse it. The more they crap on me, the more I try! I even left therapy in the middle of us dating because I knew he was not good for me, but I wanted to live in fantasyland and going to therapy did not allow me to do so! I made the mistake of taking him back to many times and every time we fight, I brake up with him. Right after the tornado, I feel fabulous, free, and happy like I can breathe again but then 2 or 3 days later, I crumple! I tried getting him back by texting him. I tried so hard to be the understanding one, I give in I am so stupid! All he did was ignore my texts I feel he is trying (and succeeding) to make me suffer I guess cause I broke up with him again (with good reason) and according to him, he do not deserve that I guess! This is what kills me, him not responding, WHY?
Then I called and asked just to hear him say it is over and to move on, he said it, so cold too! I said o.k. and hung up I got up, took all the pictures I had and some of his stuff and put it all in a bag. I went to his house and left it outside! I called him to say where I left his things and he just hung up on me! I should have never ever called or texted! Now I feel like a bigger fool! I know the rejection is killing me more so then anything else. I really just want to stay strong, and I will NOT have any contact anymore because it made me feel worse. I just hope he is suffering and the day he realizes what he threw away and calls I can be strong enough not to answer!

You need to be strong, and, as you said, take a bit of your own advice. Practice what you preach. Quit letting this guy control your emotions and get him out of your life permanently. It is hard to do, but with the way he has treated you, it shouldn't be that difficult. You deserve better, but it just seems you don't truly believe that. Start believing!

I want to believe it and I know I can deep down somewhere inside me. I am going to do the opposite of everything I did and just try to see the REALITY! I hope people read my post and realize N/C is the very best thing!!
Thank you

No Contact is the only way to handle these types of situations. Sometimes, life just flat out sucks! But, without the bitter, the sweet just ain't as sweet. Everything works out in the end... always does. You will be fine!

Ain't that the truth!!
Feeling like a fool I think sucks more at the moment.. your right I will be o.k.
((((hugs2U))))

Guess you see the light now, that's good.