I am concerned about future. I don't believe good things could last long, like a good job, compliments from others, and a good boyfriend. I am afraid my future would be miserable.
Last week I was very upset because I lost my part time job on campus. When I called the person I like, I cried to him. But all the sadness suddenly disappeared when he told me that he likes me in the end. I feel love is the most important thing in my life. But I don't know how long I could be this happy because of him. I always have feelings that I will lose him someday. I feel like I will be very sad on that day. He and I are in a distance relationship. I look forward to seeing him, but I am afraid of seeing him also. I fear that someday he will not like me. I wish I could die when I am being loved by him, so I won't get hurt later. But the only thing I am worried is my family. They would be very sad if I left them.
I hope I could get some help here.
