I purge myself.but I'm not bulimic I don't think
Okay, so I have been dealing with overeating and the vomiting on and off again for about six years now, but I have never had a serious problem with it. I will go through spurts where I will throw up a lot, but never over periods of two weeks before I give it a rest for a while. I usually don't throw up more than once a day... right after a big lunch, or before bed. Should I be concerned? I don't think that I am bulimic because I don't ever loose weight doing it, its just that sometimes I can't stop thinking about it until I throw up. I know that what I am doing is stupid, but at the same time it kind of keeps me sane. Today is my fourth day in a role throwing up at about 1 oclock in the afternoon. I went about two weeks without throwing up, and it just hit me again at the beginning of the week. I have discovered ways of hiding my problem. I always run the bath water when I throw up... strip down to nothing, and use my toothbrush. I usually piddle around in the bathroom for as long as I can to avoid throwing up.. ill look in the mirror at myself in the nude for a while... pick at myself, and then just work up enough strength to purge myself. I don't like how it feels to throw up, I just like the empty feeling I get after I throw up. I hate the way that I look, I'm overweight, and I can't ever seem to loose it the right way. My boyfriend is skinnier than me and it drives me crazy. How come I don't ever continue throwing up for more than a week at a time? Is this problem serious enough to get help? :confused: