What do I do? I love this guy & I think he feels the same but now says he doesn't know
Ok I'm sorry but the only way to explain this is to say everything so it will probibly be long.
Brief of the begining:
Ok this guy and I met right when my ex(my sons dad) and I split(in march rift before my sons birthday). All intentions were to just be friends for now because of both of our situations. But I believe we both fell in love.
My situation:
I'm eighteen single mother of a two year old. Have a crazy ex that stocked me to the point of having to get a PFA, which I then decided to drop it. Now I've been going through a messy child support and custody battle since June. I also currently am being treated for depression, emotional problems, and anxiety. My emotions take full control and I'm floating above watching myself go out of control and there is nothing I can do to stop it.
His situation:
He's 21 soon to be 22. He was set up and arrested for drugs in January. He has been fighting to get clean since. He has been through a 10 day detox twice but was still strugleing which upsets him. He is now waiting for a bed in detox so he can begin his 10 day detox then go straight into intensive inpatient treatment.
Now the story of our love:
He thinks I'm gorgeous even when everyone else would think I look horrible. I've helped him through a lot including the death of his best friend. He has shared his deepest secrets with me that no one else knows. He always makes sure my son has what he needs. He treats my son as though he is his own. He stairs at my place every chance he got. He bought me a set of $200 satin sheets. He could never take his eyes off me.
How I feel about him:
He is like the air I breath. He makes my world go round. In my eyes he is perfect in every way(I mean I see his imperfections but I look past them). I see him my heart skips beats. I can't sleep when he's not here. And anything I see or hear reminds me of him.
Where it all fell apart:
About a week and a half ago I messaged this woman on myspace that I thought I could trust because I knew she was a old friend of his and he talked to her and she understood what he was going through. Well it turns out she is the mom of this 17 year old that has previously ruined 3 of his previous relationships. He forgave me but then this woman started to harrass me. On Friday I went my bank to see how much money was in my checking account and it came back as being over drawn $165. So I was on my way out to his house to simplly show him the statement so we could decide what to do about it. But on my way out to his house that woman called me I asked her to leave me alone and hung up. She called back and harassed me saying how he hated me and all sorts of other awful things and lies and she brought his mom(the sweetest lady in the world) and two of his exes into it which upset me. When I got to his house I fliped(because of my depression and emotinal issues) and I know it was a mistake. That night to get me to leave he told me I was nothing to him and just used me. I bawled all night. The next day, Saturday, he and I talked and all he could say is he just doesn't know. He's just sick of the bull and drama.
What do I do I love him and he has my whole heart and I truly believe he feels the same.
Thank you to all who tookthe time to read this and thanks to anyone who responds.
