Originally Posted by
ibrat64
Hmmm. Why is it still on my mind? That's not really a straight forward answer...
First, I do not live in either home any longer. I moved from the first house (the man) about a year after that incident. The other home (the child) was owned by me, but I moved out in 1995.
As to why the first incident remains so prevalent in my mind...I hope you have a few moments to hear me out. :)
I don't remember anything in particular happening when i was a child. No ghosts were seen, no strange happenings. However, I do remember having told my mother every chance I got that I wanted to live in a house with a ghost. I'm fascinated by this topic and it's one of my first memories as a child. Before Christmas, birthday, and family vacation memories...I wanted a ghost.
My mother's family owned a farm in NW Ohio that was built around 1760's (family built), and was still in the family until the mid 1990's. This farm house and especially the attic where a HUGE draw to me. I still hold a weird "draw" to old farms, attics, and barns. I never got to go into the attic as the adults didn't want a chld rummaging through the family heirlooms and whatnot. My mother spent her summers in that house and her bedroom included the door to the attic. She says that although nothing ever happened to her, she was always afraid of the attic...says she always felt that there was someone, or something, in there ( I never knew this until after the farm was sold which was well after the man appeared).
I've also always had this inner "feeling" that I have a gift, specialness, secret, uniqueness, something....that I wasn't being allowed to see/have yet, but would "stumble on (?)" later, as I grew up/older.
Please, don't think I'm an idiot, for saying these things....but it was almost like some unknown/invisible family member was telling me "just wait...you'll see" or something close to that. Not in words, but just a small voice/thought/feeling I'd have when ever I would think of ghosts, spirits, or "magic" powers, which was often.
Here's a few of the strange thing that have happened...I have dreams, or thoughts during the day that predict future events. Sometimes, they're a fraction of a second before the event which I think is normal), sometimes years.
For example, I used to have recurring dreams of a terrible tornado. I was an adult at the time, and these particular dreams happened after the man (what do I call him? "The man' seems silly) appeared. Anyway, I would be a teenager again, in the family home, when the tornado would come almost out of nowhere. The first recurring dream went on for several years, and in it I would be trying to get my family to the basement for safety, when I'd realize that my father wasn't with us. I'd run back upstairs with the tornado literally right outside the front windows, to find him leisurely sitting in the living room watching TV. He would refuse to come to safety no matter how much I begged. The fear would wake me up.
My father died in 1997, at home, in his bedroom. This dream began about 1993-94.
The dream sequence began again a few years later (maybe 2000), almost exactly the same only this time my sister would be the missing family member who I couldn't convince to come to safety. She died 3 years ago.
Last spring I had another tornado dream, but this time, instead of being a teen and in the family home, I was me as an adult and out in the storm. I looked inside a trash can (no idea why), and a small wet kitten jumped out. As I gathered the kitten up and got into my car to outrun the storm the kitten turned into several kittens. I woke up very confused by that one, until a few days later (maybe a week) I found 4 tiny kittens in a dumpster filled with wet grass clippings. (I bottled fed them all, found good homes for two with my sons, and still have the other two)
Today, my husband called me on his way home from work, which is not unusual. The minute I saw his name of my caller ID I thought, "He's been in an accident." Sure enough, he was rear ended right down the street. (he's fine).
Lots of other examples but those are the highlights, I don't think I'm "psychic" simply because I don't predict events for anyone but myself (usually), and I don't think I'm getting info from a spirit. I just think I'm wired differently, but I don't know in what way or for what reason. I mean I don't get info on anything I can prevent, just on what to expect I guess. What's the point???
I think all of these things combined are what keeps the "man" in my mind so much. Not that they are related, but because it was tangible, real, not a dream....It HAPPENED and I don't know why.
Sorry to have rattled on so, but I've not really ever discussed this with anyone and it just came gushing out.
Thank you so much for your patience and responses. You really are making me feel better about this. Now if only I could get an understanding of the entirety of it. LOL
Pam