Hello, I am a 46 year old woman that just lost a job after 5 years. I am a respiratory therapist and worked in a small hospital. I tried everyday to do my best . But my I was the only therapist for evening shift for the whole hospital. We went computerized about a year ago. To make a long story short, It seemed that I always had difficulty with making sure the medication sheet was done right. I could go weeks and weeks and not miss signing one out then all the sudden I would miss some. It is complicated to explain here but this is some of the back ground. Now I find myself with out a job. I got fired this week. I am very depressed and hurting a lot. I feel like my world just caved in on me. Here it is just a few weeks before thanksgiving and a month before christmas. My husband is angry with me for losing my job. We will have to fall behind on bills until I get a new one. There won't be any money for Christmas presents. Not that I care but I do have a 15year old daughter who wants the stars and the moon. But she understands the problem. But still I feel really guilty that I can't buy her what she wants.
I feel pretty lousy and I am thinking about... well lets just say it would be better if I got out of this life? It just seems no matter what I try or do, it isn't the right thing. I don't know how to start over again and I am not sure I want to either that's why getting out is an option. I don't want to continue to RUIN my family. Where do I go from here? I know I am near the edge and a part of me doesn't want to go over. I need help.

First of all, I think you have to have hope. Hope that things will be OK :).

I think you should start planning for a month or so of what your plans are and start finding a new job and start from there.

I don't really know how to start over fresh but I think you shouldn't feel guilty of what happened in the past but try and move forward every time.

I think at this time your family should be supportive of one another and not get angry with each other.

I hope I helped and good luck ;)