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Ok so I started dating this guy named kyle. He's the most amazing boyfriend I have ever had. I don't mean to sound so explicit but his sex was by far the best I have ever had. I think that's the only reason I really fell for him. But I don't get why it's so hard to get over him if all I wanted him for is sex.
This guy is known for being a big time player (which is why his sex was so good). While we were dating I used to go through his phone and find messages he had sent to other girls promising to have sex with them. It drove me absolutely crazy finding messages on his phone like that. It happened lots of times which is why I doubt that he has never cheated on me. But I no matter what I stayed completely faithful to him and forgave him each time he screwed up. I felt like I haven't done anything wrong to him. He got kicked out of his house and I let him live with me. He was 18 and didn't have a job or anything and I'm still in high school so I don't have a job either. Anyway he couldn't really support himself. So my mom felt bad for him and I convinced my mom to help him out a little bit. And when I say a little bit I mean A LOT. My mom treated him like he was her own son. She paid for his car insurance, cell phone bill, food, clothes and anything that he ever wanted. He even got an allowance from her. And as for myself I treated him like a king. I cooked. Cleaned. Did his laundry while he sat on his butt playing video games all day. And on top of that this guy was still so disrespectful to me. He still flirted with other girls and asked sex from them and he was very controlling. He never let me see any of my friends because he didn't like any of them and I wasn't allowed to talk to any guys at all. And I did everything he asked.
One day he popped the question and got me this 14k gold ring. He also got my initials tattooed on his ankle(which really didn't mean a lot because his best friend is a tattoo artist so if we broke up he could get the tattoo cover for free). But it still meant a lot to me because no guy as ever done anything like that for me before... EVER.
Well eventually I guess he got sick of living with me and moved back to his parent's house. His parents live in a different town that's about an hour from where I live so it was hard to see him. I only got to see him on the weekends. It was so hard because I couldn't trust him after all that he did to me. And every time I would call him during the week days he would be out getting drunk with a bunch of his "friends" who were girls. So we fought and fought and fought everyday since he had moved back with his parents which was about two weeks. One day he got sick of it and said it was over but he said that one day we might get back together. He even gave me his dead uncle's necklace as a reminder that one day he would come back. At first I tried so hard to act like everything was OK. We stayed friends for a few days and still talked to each other like we were dating. Then five days later I lost it and practically got down on my knees and begged for him back. But he wouldn't take me back. He said that he didn't want to be with me if he couldn't live with me but at the same time he refused to move back in with me which really didn't make any sense to me at first until I found out the worst thing ever. He already found a new girlfriend. It had only been like five days since we broke up and he already found somebody else!
It's been driving me crazy! And on top of that I had the password to his email and I read all of the emails him and his girlfriend sent to each other and it was horrible! He told her all of these lies like I couldn't take a hint that he didn't want me (even though he kept promising me he would come back). He made it seem like I was constantly bugging him and was obsessed with him (which I was but I never showed it). Which was completely untrue. I made myself as scarce as possible. They even called me a baby and said I was being immature and how I can't handle anything because I'm so much younger then both of them. But just the fact that he made me seem so desperate was so embarrassing! I was furious so I cut all ties that I had with him. I completely got rid of my phone so that I wouldn't ever be tempted to text or call him.
But now it feels so wrong. I feel so empty and sad. I feel so betrayed and I can't seem to get over him. I was just trying to do what's right and lose all contact with him and let him move on with his life. And to think one day I did message him to let him know that he left some stuff at my house he responded "you know if you wouldn't have ignored me, we would have been back together by now". It made me feel horrible. I want him back but I can't get over what he's done! I just want to forget about him I wish I didn't even care about him! But for some reason I miss him so much even after all he put me through! I never saw this coming. I treated him so well. I don't believe I deserve this. I just don't get why he gets to have the time of his life and I'm sitting at home crying my eyes out every night. What do I do?
