Yesterday while working with my boyfriend on a letter he gave me his email account password. I know that it is wrong but this morning I went through and found some stuff he had written about me months ago. It was very hurtful about him not wanting to spend his life with me and that we just didn't have good chemistry. Things right now are going well but I am worried that circumstances have caused him to be more dependent on me and that when his circumstances return to normal we will be back to square one. I wonder if he still feels the way he expressed himself in the email and that he is just tolerating the situation right now. I want to spend my life with him, but I feel hurt and betrayed and now more than anything else scared, especially if that is how he still feels about our relationship. Any thoughts?

I see it this way, you have invested ? Long with this guy and now you are finding out that he does not really like you. Confront him, or dump him, Your choice. Chalk it up to experience and learn to read a person better. Or at least learn to talk better to your dates.

We have been together for five years, we live together, I wish it was as easy as you suggest.

Five and living together are two red flag to me. Sorry it is that easy. You need to find a place to live on your own. Tell him the day you are moving out that you are doing it and get on with your life. Or the other alternative is to stay and take it. Your choice. Personally I do not suggest staying in any sort abusive relationship. And words can be as abusive as actions. So if you stay be prepared for more of the same or worse.