I think I'm depressed and have a problem. When I get really depressed I have to drink just to make myself feel normal... I don't know what I can do. I've tried talking about it, but that doesn't seem to help. I don't want to turn into an alcoholic, or maybe I already have. I'm a 20 yr old female by the way. I'm a junior in college. Things just seem to be going downhill. Maybe talking about it all on here will help, who knows. Worth a shot right.

:)Hello, I can seem to understand you but you are a young lady that should be going out to have fun with friends. I passed by something similar but I improved myself by keeping myself busy doing something else such as e-mailing friends, doing some community service or even trying to help others with problems, for example on this web page. Think about the future and what you want to accomplish in your life, you are in college so there is definitely something you want to be in your life. Think about all the things you could do, you may want to go on a vacation or go to the beach and clear your mind off the problems you may have. I hope I was able to help you and don't forget that we all come here for a purpose and you should think about the future and the goals you will accomplish in your life.:o

Hi, mcrunner!

What do you think is causing you to be depressed, please?

Thanks!

Lots of my friends are betraying my trust. I've confided in some of my guy friends and they just take advantage of that trust and it turns into something sexual, rather consensual or not. I don't know who to talk to now. And with all this going on my grades are slipping and I can't do my homework because I'm unmotivated and depressed.

I'm here right now, mcruner, if you'd like to discuss your situation. Are there counselors at the school that you attend? Do you go to a church? Are you a member of any clubs?

I'm sorry about all the questions, but I'm just trying to get a clearer picture as to who you are. If needed, I do know just the right people from this site to alert about your thread. They will be able to give you outstanding advice and strong shoulders on which to lean.

It doesn't matter what age you are - you can suffer depression at any time in your life.

When you're there (depressed that is) it can be hard to see the friends and support that you do have and you push them away thinking you are a burden to them. The problem is finding the will to get better because it doesn't matter how much advice you get from people, in the end it is you who has to decide to get better (a lot harder than it sounds but people do it all the time). I'm not saying just pick up your socks and get on with it - that can be the most annoying piece of advice anyone can give! You have to let yourself be selfish and think 'what will be best for ME in this situation?' and act on that.

Making people around you aware that you're struggling can help - although some just won't understand. You've taken a good step by coming here and seeking help - now try that within your social support network (avoiding the guys who are misunderstanding you)...

But as Clough said there are people here who will listen to you without judgement - no one can judge anothers pain as it is a very personal thing.

We're here for you.

Clough - There are counselors at my school, and I've been thinking about going, but just can't get up the guts to do it. I don't go to church, and I do run cross country, though I had to quit mid-season this year because of the added stress. I just couldn't handle it anymore. I do plan on running again next year though. I'll be a senior and it'll be my last opportunity.

I don't really even know what's wrong, but I know it's something and it just keeps getting worse. Over the summer I was raped by a guy that was a year older than my dad. There's a thread on here about that if you'd like to read it. Also, in September, a guy I just met took advantage of me, but I'm not quite sure I'd call it rape. I'm still confused on that one. Well, anyway, a lot of my guy friends that I considered to be really close, I confided in and told them kind of what was going on. Then they all seem to think it's OK to make sexual advances on me. This has happened 4 times already and I don't know why it keeps happening. I just recently started dating someone and I thought that would stop them, but it happened again this weekend. Sometimes it consists of feeling me up, others kissing, and others get more sexual. Why do they keep doing this to me. They're supposed to be my friends. I didn't come to them looking for a sexual relationship, and they knew that. I'm having enough emotional issues in that area already, and I told them about that. When I come to them and talk about how I was raped, how can they think it's OK to come on to me like that? I just don't get it. Why are they being such A-holes? I just want a friend, but they can't seem to be that without wanting more. For some reason it's easier for me to confide in guys about this sort of thing, but that doesn't seem to be working out. I don't know where to go to now. I'm tired of being hurt and having my trust betrayed.