I think I want him but not sure I'm aloud to
OK I have a huge crush on this guy, its not normal though , we've started talking this year and all of a sudden I like him more then ever.Its killing me I can't sleep well, I'm not hungry anymore at all, and whenever I see him I get all shy and weird ,today he even asked me what's wrong !god! Does it show that much? My friend told me that it shows too much,and that when I look at him I get so many sparkles in my eyes.
The big problem is that I'm not aloud to date guys of his race I know its sounds racist but its not my fault I personaly don't really care about that but my family does and they will get super mad if I don't date someone they like or confirm is OK. I need help this can't go on! Does anybody know a way for me to stop likeing this guy? Its like I keep on trying to convince myself that I don't like him at all I try to block my feelings but they never seem to want to disappear ,and I don't want to ruin a freindship over a crush? ANY HELP PLEASE!