I am oxycontin addict have been for several years I am know suffering immensely from the use of those drugs no sleep, hives. Itch lost a ton of weigh, look puffy , just tired a lot.

I keep thinking this is it, I have no one to help me I have friends but only for the dope. I do have 3 grown kids but I can't tell them what's up I just cant. I have tried so many times to get off them but I can't hurts SO bad. I feel like I am losing ground in my life were there is no hope. YA I know Iam just another one of those worthless addicts. No one ever wakes up in the morning ans say hey I want to be a oxy addict today. I have no self esteem at all I guess I sold it with the rest of the drugs. I need help and I just don't know what to do, Iam such a loser, Ive lost it all.

First of all, you are NOT just another worthless addict or a loser okay! I know that is the drugs talking for you. You are a person with real feelings, and a problem. I'm sure your kids don't think you're worthless, and neither do I. Your kids need you, and you do need to talk to a Dr. about this. Don't let your pride get in the way, and don't feel ashamed.

Unfortunately there are things that happen in life sometimes, that we feel we can't deal with, without self-medication. But the downside of that, is you become addicted, and you just can't stop taking them on your own. Yourself worth and self esteem goes right down the drain, and that makes it easier to just continue taking the Oxy C.

Did you start taking the meds for an actual condition? or were just needing an escape from life. Were they prescribed in the beginning, and then you started getting more on your own? Whatever the case is, please speak to a Dr. and maybe you can come up with a better plan, and something to wean you off your meds slowly. Either that, and I'm sure you've heard this a million times, but enter a rehab program. Not very appealing, I'm sure. But what is the alternative really? Running to the drug dealers, and risk getting caught and having your children driven away, and alienated from you, just so you can get a fix? You can't do this alone, so please, let your kids be your motivation so they can have their Mom back. I'm sure your kids know anyway, they might just be afraid to bring it up.

I wish you all the luck in the world, and I really hope you can dig yourself out of this.

God speed! :)

I got them from my doc when I hurt my shoulder I have had countinued problems with it and she just gives them to with out asking me anything. Thanks for the advise it was awesome I need to hear some of that stuff..

Thank you again

I would tell your Dr. I know you are probably afraid that if you do, she will cut you off completely, but it isn't very responsible of her not to ask you any questions. She sounds like a drug dealer, and is no different than someone you would see on the street.

Maybe try and make an appt. with another Dr. You are allowed to have more than one. See if you can find one that specializes in addictions. They won't, or at least shouldn't just cut you right off. Oxy isn't something that you should just stop cold turkey, and I don't know about your pharmacy, but mine gives out info sheets on every medication. I'm pretty sure Oxy would be one with a warning, telling you to consult a Dr. before discontinuing the drug.

It's just crazy when some Dr.'s prescribe a medication that gets you hooked, when one that is less addictive could have been prescribed. In many cases this is done to get you to return, so they can buy that big house or new car they wanted, while they have left you in the dust, because they really didn't do their job, and now you're resorting out of necessity to go to the corner drug dealer. It's crazy.

I'm not saying you have done the right thing all along, but neither did you Dr. and she should be doing the job she is being paid to do.

I think you may be ready for Narcotics Anonymous... a group of folks who suffer from the same problems you do, and they help each other stay off drugs. You may want to go get detoxed first.

Being in a 12 Step Program will help you retrieve your confidence and self-worth over time. :) Having friends is a glorious feeling.

Best wishes to you in the future,