I am feeling very overwhelmed. I am stay at home mom of 2 boys. They are 2 and 4. I love them to death, but I don't feel like I ever do anything good enough. I work from home and I babysit for friends and all of this makes me not enjoy my own kids. I enjoy my work, and it is very flexible (can work 24/7 and only 10 hours a week) plus it makes me feel like I am contributing to the family. I babysit 3 days a week and literally wake up in tears because I don't want to do it. I have my 2 kids plus a 1 and 2 year old and I feel like I am trying to meet the babysitting kids needs and put my own kids on the back burner. My days are so rushed. I get up at 6:30 and don't go to bed until 11 and I feel like I get nothing done and my kids are starting to suffer. I don't feel like I pay them enough attention and when I do have time to sit down with them I just want to chill by myself. I usually am behind on my work and have to end up spending the weekend getting caught up working and trying to get the house in some sort of order. I am so burnt out that there are days I just sit down and cry while they run around causing havok (like today!). My husband is supportive. Tells me to go out with my friends, shopping, etc, but I don't feel like I have time for that. He tries to help out around the house but there are some things he just can't do (cooking!). He tells me to let the babysitting kids go, but I feel like I have a responsibility to them. Also, I look at what I make in the month from it and it really does help us out. The days I don't babysit, I take my oldest to preschool and usually run errands, so again, no real quality time with my kids. How do I fit it in when I feel like I am so busy. My kids are favoring their father over me and I feel it is because of this. My 2 year old use to be a mommas boy until a few months ago. Now every morning he wakes up asking for dad and it just breaks my heart. My oldest is always talking about when the weekend is coming because dad will be off work. I don't want to ruin the relationship with my kids, but I am so exhausted that I don't know what to do. Between cleaning, cooking, working, babysitting, I just don't feel like I have a moment to breathe. Help!