I like a girl Who's in a long and dedicated relastionship
Where to even begin... I met this girl through my cousin first time I met her I fell in love with her eye's her smile her sense of humor just everything about her. So we starting hanging out like every day and the more I got to know her the more I fell in love with her. Which in tales the problem I learned after a month with hanging out with her almost constantly that she had a b/f and had been dateing him for 2 years which threw me a bit off guard. But I let it go and continued to hang out with her then out of the blue she started to drop subtle hints that she liked me as more then just a friend and we talked about it on occasion but never went into any depth about it. So I contemplated it and even met her b/f on a few occasion's and complacent to say I didn't like him the fact that he was 10 year's older then her and had a drug issue probably didn't help matter's. But anyway she still gave me hints but I decided unless she was willing to leave him there was no hope of it and I didn't see that happening so I kind of let it drop then after living there for about 8 months and hanging out with her for 7 of those months I had an issue with my job and had to leave. I haven't spoken to her in almost 2 years now and I thought I was over it then about 6 months ago I was watching TV and on this movie was a girl that looked so much like her they could have been twin's and all those feelings came back and I haven't been able to get her out of my head. Then yesterday my aunt came to visit and like a dumb butt I had to ask how this girl was doing and she told me that she had a baby not to long ago but wasn't sure if they had gotten married or not. So sadly my spirit's have been crushed not the fact that she has a child that in no way bother's I love kids but just the fact that she is still with him going on almost 4 or 5 years now just crushed me completely when she deserves so much better and well I don't know what I should do since I'm planning on moveing up there again to go back to college, and I'm not sure if I should even talk to her because of the way I feel and what might come out of my mouth since I'm not much of a thinker and just say what's on my mind :/ So basically I don't know what I should do should I go back and be her friend, go back and not talk to her at all, or go back and tell her how I truly feel and hope her b/f doesn't have a pshycotic episode from one of his drugs and try to kill me :/ Any help would be much appreciated.