Courage to move on - cheated on / nc /friends
Hi, this is my first post here, but I have been lurking around reading some insightful posts.
My girlfriend and I of 1.5 years broke up almost 2 months ago and before we broke up, she had cheated on me with 2 other guys, about 1 week before we broke up. I had found out and confronted her about it. I was mad as hell and so hurt, nothing I've experienced before. I was so heartbroken. :( She did not regret what she did when I confronted her, not until a couple weeks later.
I'm struggling with 3 things right now: my ego/self-esteem, she wants to be friends, and doing no contact.
My life just hasn't been the same, my ego is shot, myself esteem is low, my confidence is low and all aspects of my life have been affected. I think, the act of her cheating has made me feel emasculated, and so low on myself. Usually, I would consider myself a man among men, someone who's confident, funny, has goals in life, has direction, has passion and pretty optimistic on life. But what my ex-gf had done and the way I found out and she not telling me, I just haven't been the same.
Second thing is, she wants to be friends again, is this a good idea?
Third: no contact. I guess this is similar to be friends. This NC thing is so hard, its been broken 5 times since then, 4 times were her initiation.
I appreciate any insights anyone would have. Thanks. :)