Originally Posted by
jtballer
Tonight we had a shower. had great talks. that's somethin we stopped doing. we never just talk and joke. we sat in the bathtub and talked for a while. we had sex and i did something i never have done before, i came inside her, and she isn't on the pill.
i am going insane here, i can't believe i did that.
after all that we were laying and talking and she is saying she wants to be with me maybe now but we have to see how things go.
so she falls asleep and i find a cell phone charger because she let her phone die thinking i wouldn't be able to look in it. okay... now this is psycho and bad i know, but i feel like i'm going crazy here.... so i got a charger and started looking at the text. she was telling her friends that she likes the other guy and how she told me that it was over. she told three people the same thing. and then she told the guy she likes that same thing and that she wanted to see him again.
that was before we did the shower and everything else. she said she will hang with him tommorrow, but she just said she'll spend the day with me.
so i'm thinking she will probably just at some point tommorrow leave me and then go be with him. if this happens, i will try to keep my cool and not talk anymore.
i did a great thing tonight by showing affection, which is something i don't do enough of and she loves. so maybe it will stick in her head and she will want to be with me.
i hope