Sooooo... yeah.
I met this guy at a public dinner on our first day of college. I would glance up and notice that he was looking at me and smiling. I always looked down quickly and went back to eating or moved on to talk to my friend next to me.
So after a while I'd walk past him in school and I would always catch him looking at me. It was so embarrassing, I had no clue what to do or say so I just ignored it... but I have a crush on this guy.
There were a lot of reasons I ignored him and didn't say anything. First off I didn't know he was gay and totally didn't realize that he was trying to show me he was interested. I just didn't want to get my feelings hurt by taking that risk, but I finally got the courage to smile back at him.
Then he stopped looking at me altogether. I didn't know what I did wrong. I assumed that he had just moved on and whatever since I guess I wasn't showing interest but I really did want him to know his feelings were mutual..
So! It came to the point where I finally just sucked it up and talked to him. I mean, I was tired of always trying to make eye contact with him when he was obviously not biting the bait. So we talked about some pointless stuff but nothing major. I was pretty happy I did too, I thought this was the first step in getting this guy to realize how I felt.
Today I tried to follow that up by looking at him or trying to say hi. He didn't even look over at me for me to say "hi." I guess I just assumed that talking to him a few days before would at least mean he'd acknowledge me when we passed each other... It hurts but, I just want to know what you guys think. Should I try to talk to him again? Should I try to say hi in the hallways? Or should I just move on?
I know that this may not even be the type of relationship I'm looking for, but I'll be damned if I don't give it a try. Tell me what you think.
