Jealousy eating me inside
Hi there, as a young child my parents always wanted me to be the best I could be, and they basically taught me to get the best things out of life.
However, now that I am a fully grown adult, I recently noticed that this attitude I have developed has turned on me 180%. I can no longer enjoy my life as I used to when I was younger, I always find myself competing with others consciously and subconsciously for the better positions in my workplace, and as soon as someone who is a tiny bit better than me comes along, I get all worked up and tense and I swear I am unable to concentrate on my own work and I don't succeed.
How can I put these jealous feelings behind me? I would really like to be the best I can be in life, without having to hate anyone just because they seem to be doing better than I am. Because no matter where I turn, I find no matter how hard I work, there is always someone better than me who gets everything they want in life so easily. Please help explain why this is so, and how I an get rid of this anxiety because it is driving me crazy.
Thanks for listening to this dull rant.