Its too late. Im over it.
So I did what everybody told me to do and back away. What did that do? It made him go back to the girl he broke up with me for. And all this time I'm thinking I should really give him space because he just lost his brother and he's going through a hard time, he's out getting tattoos and dating this girl again. I confronted him about it today and told him how what he did was messed up and all he could say is "we need to talk about this tonight". I told him straight up that I can never talk to him again after the pain and confusion and false hope he put me through. But he refuses to accept that. He just keeps saying that he's going to leave me alone for a little while but we have gone through too much for me to just be out of his life. Whatever. I may have loved him, but I'm not a fool. So now the tables have turned. He wants to talk to me but I won't let him. He has a new girlfriend for all that now, so he should let me be. I'm not going to let him have his cake and eat it too. And as for his brothers death? Hes using that as an excuse to get himself out of trouble. But I'm not stupid and I know a liar when I see one. Yeah I'll admit I'm pretty shocked and hurt that he would do such a thing because this isn't like him, but to me it is closure and I have nothing to wonder about anymore. Whoever this girl is that he's willing to end a 2 year relationship for, better be the one he marries. Because I cried and begged and stressed too much for this to be some "fling" or whatever. At this point I am moving on.