I wanted if my thoughts and mind prosses follow under the normal catagorie cause it just makes me nervouse after reading a thing about the killers in the columbine shooting. I've had depression issues in the past and have entertained thoughts of death I've actually thought about death a lot. My philosiphy on it is I'll go when its my time and I'll do whatever I can while I'm still alive. I think about death and the deaths of others a lot and in the past have actually wonder what it was like to kill somebody and how it feels. I wasn't planning on killing anybody but I just wonder what it feels like. Do I have an issue or am I just over curiouse of dark things.

You are over curious about dark things. Suggest you talk to a grown up you trust and get this straightened up.

You're curious about the darkness of death. Talk to people who have lost someone close to them, whether by murder, accident or natural causes.

Yeah you are over curious about dark things. But you need to seek help. Your mum, dad someone like that could really help. You think and wonder wayyy too much. And I'm sure it would be a feeling of hate, guild and sorrow.

You seriously need to ask someone that you can really trust that won't tell anyone else about it.

I went through the same thing! When I had depression during high school, I thought just like you, and yes, I even though about Columbine A LOT actually. In general, it was a dark year filled with thoughts of death and dying. Don't worry, you are normal, you're just caught up in the darkness of the world.

What I did was found a new passion or hobby. I started doing a lot of charity work and such and found that it was very helpful. If you surround yourself by a positive thing that you love, it will truly help.

I would also like to add that you should probably get help for your depression (if you haven't already have.) Seeing a counsellor helps a lot because then you have someone to talk intimately about these things.