Risk of suicide with anti-depressants
I want to talk over how I am feeling with you guys; starting afresh. On a scale of 1-10 where 1 is black hole depression with complete despair, and 10 is happy and content...
Before anti depressents and with no exercise, I have been as low as 1-2.
Exercise helps a lot and with it I feel about a 4.
Before anti depressents, I feel low like I don't want to live. Very sad and cry and feel sorry for myself. Get help you say, OK so I go on anti depresents (prozac). Since starting on anti depressents I feel an urge to kill myself and I cut my arm up. Like a tight feeling in my gut after I go to bed where I desire death and imagine a strong desire to be crushed, drowned, hung, stabbed, decapitated. Having an urge to step out in front of a car as I walk down the street (never had to fight any urge like that before!).
Is this normal for increased risk of suicide after going on anti depressents? In other words are the anti depressents directly causing this and increasing my anxiety? I am just seeking knowledge and understanding so I can better cope with my feelings.