me and my boyfriend have been together for almost 2 1/2 years, engaged at one point but not now. He's 20 and I'm 19. There are so many things about him that I don't like and can't stand, but I really do love him. There are some things I like about him but NOT his ADHD, he has it to the MAX and it so annoying. But sometimes if I'm not around him I miss it. But a lot of the time I'm really not happy and other times I am. I guess its just a love hate relationship? But I kind of don't want that, sometimes I feel like I can do better and other times I don't.I don't know if anyone who's reading this is into astrology but he's a libra and I'm a scorpio. As you can tell, not a great match, and I believe in astrology, but not to the point that it runs my life. This past summer I broke up with him because I was just tired of his b.s.. I had a great time being single. I hung out with a lot of guys just as friends. I reunited with my girl best friend of 3 years and we had a lot of fun together. I got a new job and I met this absolutely sexy guy. We started hanging out, first at the club, then with his friends, we smoked together at our houses almost everyday, on the lake on his friends boat and I spent the night with him a couple times. We kissed all the time and I reallyyyyyy liked his personalty, he was so much more chill than my ex. Most of all he's a capricorn, my perfect match! And he's 3 years older than me which I like.. I really liked hanging out with him. At the beginning he texted me everyyyyyy day wanting to smoke.and when we first started hanging out we were texting and he said that he wasn't looking for a relationship. But at the end of the summer me and my ex got back together and lately I've just been getting more and more miserable and allllllllllll, literally ALL I can think about is the other guy. I haven't talked to him in a couple months and I always just want to text him randomly and just go hang out with him. I'm scared to break up with my boyfriend because I'm scared to be alone, I have no idea what I would do without him . What if me and the other guy don't work out? Should I take the chance? Should I not break up with my boyfriend and sneak around? Will these feelings pass? I don't know please help!