I don't know what to do
I feel like everything is changing in my life for the worst
I hate who I've
And I don't know its all kind of hard to explain how exactly I feel in my head
I guess you could say I'm lonely
I have a boyfriend an amazing one but sometimes I feel as though he does not care about me as much as he used to by his actions and his words and I don't know
And then there is my grandpa he is getting old and sick and he has always been my dad like figure to me cause my dad never cared enough to really be in my life and I have even decided that I wanted him to be the one that walked me down the isle on my wedding day not my dad cause I felt like he was more of a dad to me then my own dad was. Lately we have had some problems and the other night he got mad aat me and called me the biggest piece of he ever met and that killed me coming from the guy that I looked up to all my life and its eating up at me killing me everything is and I don't know I can't stop crying

At times we all say something we don't mean in the moment; what he said was not right, but adults make mistakes to, I'm sure he didn't mean it. You should talk to him and tell him how it made you feel. Did something lead up to his comments? Because people don't normally have outbursts without a reason.

Sounds like your going through a rough patch right now, Cutie, so hold your head up and let it pass. We all go through that from time to time. When things have calmed down, mend your fences with your grandfather, as even he can have a bad day also.

Hang in there...

Rough times will come and go from your life for the rest of it, so its something that you will learn to cope with. Just know that in time it will pass...

That being said, understand that you are the only one who can change anything in your life. It is up to you to determine where you will be in the future and how you get there.. Try to find what makes you happy. If you aren't happy with how you are now, what's stopping you from trying new things, see what else makes you happy. A new hobby? New friends? Try to keep a positive mind...