I suffer from depresion and panic attacks I've had a really bad life and its getting worse my son is dying and I am keeping all and everything bottled up inside I don't have anyone to talk to I feel I don't want to get up in the morning I'm tyred all the time and I feel like running and running I'm scared

You need some support groups with people that are going through what you are.
People can be understanding and be sympathetic and all but until you find people who are going through or have been through what you are going through it is really hard to get through what you are going through. Find something in your area or on the internet.
You are even welcome here when you want somebody to talk with.
I have been through too much in my life and my friends all live at least 20 miles from me so I come here when I am down or just don't have anything better to do.

What is your son dying from? I know that has to be really the hardest thing in the world to go through. I can't begin to imagine how devastating that it can be. No matter how hard I could imagine it I know it would have to be a billion times harder.

Buck up! You have to be there for your son.

Get some support from a local church; they frequently have people who provide care for those needing extra support during hard times.

Be sure to add daily exercise to your life... walking or cycling for an hour will bring out healing endorphins to your system. You will feel better immediately.

Best wishes during this time of sadness,