Every day I feel that life is a joke,it makes me want to jump off a cliff at night to end it,my very own dumbass parents tell me I was born as a retard,disfunctional with disorder.PUT YOURSELF IN MY POSITION AN IMAGINE THIS,your walking into your school,people look at you joke on you try to tell you such mean things,your all exhausted,depressed pissed of an tired last night from talking wit you father till 1;00 am in the dam mornin. You got to study hear dam noice in the lunch room then keep your freakin head up to hear what the dam teacher needs to say cause you know if you don't you will fail your dam class.To me my childhood is all screwed up,all cold hearted and full of crap.My mother is awkward,my dad keeps her working like a ,JUST SO HE COULD GET ALL THE FAMOUSE MAC COMPUTER S OUT THERE,AND GUESS WHAT HE DIDN'T GRADUATE FROM COLLEGE AT ALL HE IS A DUMB FAT FAT SICK DOOR MAN Working IN THE CHRYSLER BUILDING IN MANHATTAN,HE GETS PAID $278 A WEEK,JUST NOT ENOUGH TO SERVE THE DAM FAMILY AS MY MOTHER USUALLY DOES,MY MOTHER GRADUATED FROM COLLEGE AND GOT A DEGREE,SHE GETS PAID $3000 EVERY 2 WEEKS,YA PRETTY KOOL HUH,ONLY FREAKIN REASON WHY FAT SICK FATHER MARRIED MY MOTHER WAS ONLY FOR HER MONEY,SO FREAKIN OBVIOUS HUH.I HATE MY DAD SO MUCH, I CAN NEVER GO TO THE PARK ANYMORE AND MEET MY BEST FRIENDS(MY FRIENDS ARE MORE OF A FATHER TO ME I LOVE THEM AND Don't KNOW WHAT I CAN DO WITHOUT THEM).I HATE MY DAD SO MUCH I WISH HE COULD BURN IN HELL FOR ALL THE CRAP HE HAS DONE TO ME!SOMEBODY OUT THERE,PLEASE GIVE ME ADVICE ON WAT I SHOULD DO TO THIS MONSTER!CAUSE PRETTY SOON IM Going TO RUNAWAY FROM FROM HOME CAUSE IM SO DEAD SICK OF HIM,I LISTEN TO EMINEM-(CLEANIN OUT MY CLOSET)DATS MY SOUL PLAYER OUT THERE,SO SOMEONE PLEASE GIVE ME ADVICE CAUSE IM OUT OF CONTROL,I Don't FEEL LIKE EATINING ARE Doing ANYTHING,NOW I JUST SIT DOWN IN A DARK ROOM AND REST MY HEAD DOWN Feeling LIKE IM TRAPPED IN HELL WHERE EVERYONE IS AGAINST ME,SOMEONE HELP,IM 14 YEARS OLD!

Quite an anger problem you have there!! :)

As a minor child, your responsibility in life is to study hard and get an education. Listen to school guidance counselors and get on a course that will lead toward a career so you don't become a burden on society.

Incidentally, that is also the way toward happiness. :)

Have a great weekend!

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Originally Posted by delecate333

Every day i feel that life is a joke,it makes me wanna jump off a cliff at night to end it,my very own dumbass parents tell me i was born as a retard,disfunctional with disorder.PUT YOURSELF IN MY POSITION AN IMAGINE THIS,your walkin into your school,people look at you joke on you try to tell you such mean things,your all exhausted,depressed pissed of an tired last night from talkin wit ya father till 1;00 am in the dam mornin. You gotta study hear dam noice in the lunch room then keep your freakin head up to hear what the dam teacher needs to say cause you know if ya don't you will fail your dam class.To me my childhood is all screwed up,all cold hearted and full of crap.My mother is awkward,my dad keeps her workin like a ,JUST SO HE COULD GET ALL THE FAMOUSE MAC COMPUTER S OUT THERE,AND GUESS WHAT HE DIDN'T GRADUATE FROM COLLEGE AT ALL HE IS A DUMB FAT FAT SICK DOOR MAN WORKIN IN THE CHRYSLER BUILDING IN MANHATTAN,HE GETS PAID $278 A WEEK,JUST NOT ENOUGH TO SERVE THE DAM FAMILY AS MY MOTHER USUALLY DOES,MY MOTHER GRADUATED FROM COLLEGE AND GOT A DEGREE,SHE GETS PAID $3000 EVERY 2 WEEKS,YA PRETTY KOOL HUH,ONLY FREAKIN REASON WHY FAT SICK FATHER MARRIED MY MOTHER WAS ONLY FOR HER MONEY,SO FREAKIN OBVIOUS HUH.I HATE MY DAD SO MUCH, I CAN NEVER GO TO THE PARK ANYMORE AND MEET MY BEST FRIENDS(MY FRIENDS ARE MORE OF A FATHER TO ME I LOVE THEM AND DONT KNOW WHAT I CAN DO WITHOUT THEM).I HATE MY DAD SO MUCH I WISH HE COULD BURN IN HELL FOR ALL THE CRAP HE HAS DONE TO ME!SOMEBODY OUT THERE,PLEASE GIVE ME ADVICE ON WAT I SHOULD DO TO THIS MONSTER!CAUSE PRETTY SOON IM GOIN TO RUNAWAY FROM FROM HOME CAUSE IM SO DEAD SICK OF HIM,I LISTEN TO EMINEM-(CLEANIN OUT MY CLOSET)DATS MY SOUL PLAYER OUT THERE,SO SOMEONE PLEASE GIVE ME ADVICE CAUSE IM OUT OF CONTROL,I DONT FEEL LIKE EATINING ARE DOIN ANYTHING,NOW I JUST SIT DOWN IN A DARK ROOM AND REST MY HEAD DOWN FEELIN LIKE IM TRAPPED IN HELL WHERE EVERYONE IS AGAINST ME,SOMEONE HELP,IM 14 YEARS OLD!

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Quit the cry for help. No worries I do it too. You sound like you need to relax, and try not to listen to the angry music, I used to do it when I was young and feelings like you. Often wishing the world would just end, or that I should destroy societies comfortable living. Yes I had anger that may even match yours, how'd I get away from it? I realized that people are just people, and most people do things that are mean or hurtful, because they themselves hurt or are afraid. I began to hear what people were saying, and understanding what that meant. There is a lot of pain and anger out there, but you're not the only one feeling like you are. Honestly, I'd talk to a counsiler. You may have depression, of some sort.

YOu sound apathetic (you don't care what happens either way) and you are angry, irritable, and short tempered. I"m like this on my bad depressed days, I"m a manic depressive or Bipolar. I strongly suggest you talk to some one, I'm sure they have help lines that are free, and tell your doctor.

Now I know counsilers are not fun, and they never seem to help, but really they aren't supposed to help you, you have to help yourself, they can only guid you and give you information. Doctors, are similar, they can't fix you you have to be open and honest with them let them know when pills aren't working or if they are. Listen to their advice, they know your body better then you, but do remember that any Psychological problems are hard to define and often run together, but require different meds. It is a process of elimination to find the right meds.

This all of course is if you are depressed. If not, I don't really know what to say, try to find a means to get through it, and what were you talking to your father about, and why is he keeping you up all night or is it your choice to stay up and talk?

Try to take it easy, eh. I know it may feel hopeless, I often feel that way too, but it will soon pass, and there will be joys.

Do you live with your father and mother then? What about your mother, what is she like??

Sounds like someone who has no respect for anyone, First unless dad is only working part time, door man make more than that a week.

And guess what, nothing wrong with being a doorman, or a janitor, or the greeter at walmart, people have to do those job, and you should be prou that your dad is out there doing his best.

Next while I think everyone should try and get more education, guess what, you do the best you can with what you did.
So this should show you the need to study hard and go to college.

So personally stop blaming everyone else and start taking responsibility for yourself and what you do

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You should be glad you have parents, that let you rant, and rave, and act silly, and listen to dumb music. My kids didn't have that luxury.

Some of the best stories I hear from people who are successful are ''my mom or dad cleaned toilets at minimum wage so they could put me through college''. So I don't think your hatred for your dad's job is worth the effort you put into your hate for him.
Be thankful you do have two parents. What makes you think he only wants your mom for her income? Have you ever had a talk with your dad about him and his life and the way he thinks and feels about things?
You complain about your parents who seem content with each other yet you admit you are out of control maybe you should ask your mom to use some of her hard earned money to get you some counseling

Sounds like you really hate him. Be glad you actaually have parents though! You don't hate your mom do you? See a counselor too.