She wants to be with me but isn't in love with me
I have been with this girl for 11 months and I am in love with her. I met her at school and she lives in another state. We have had a great relationship with lots of fun and laughing and great sex. About a month before school got out she broke down crying one day because she said that she didn't love me and that she didn't know what to do when it came time for her to go home for the summer. She said the only way she would do a long distance thing over summer would be if she was madly in love with me. I told her to enjoy the last month and then see how we felt after that. The month passed and it was time to say goodbye and she told me she wanted to do a long distance thing and that she wanted me to visit her over the summer. She also told me that she loved me and that I was the person who made her the happiest. We have talked everyday of summer and I went to visit her for 11 days. We had a lot of ups and downs and then she told me that she had wanted to break up over summer but she hadn't because she was afraid I would write her off next year at school. But, we didn't end up breaking up even though I said that I would take a break and pick it back up with her again at school. Then I was supposed to go on vacation with her a few weeks later and she ended up not going. She called me and told me she couldn't do it anymore and that she wanted to pick it back up at school then I asked not to speak to me for four days. 2 hours later that same day she sent me 30 texts saying she had just been stressed out and had not meant it. I didn't respond and that night she left me a sobbing voicemail saying she didn't want to lose me. I forgave her the next day and we are together. But during all this she says that she's still not in love with me and that it will take more time. I am wondering why she stayed with me over this whole summer and talked to me everyday for hours and let me visit her and how she wants to be together at school if she is not in love with me? She is also going abroad the whole year after this year. I am wondering is she in love with me and denying it or is she using me or does she just really like me and if so will she fall in love or am I just wasting my time?