I'm going crazy, I have a plan that is borderline insanity.
You may think I need help after this, but it is my only option. I hope someone can understand and help me work this out. My girlfriend left me over a month ago because of how bad I messed things up. We were together over a year, and I think she is with someone else already. She's moved four hours away, but she is here a lot for some reason. Either way, its irrelevant, she doesn't owe any bills so she can come back anytime.
I have tried dating other women, I cannot find anyone as pretty and as nice as she was to me. I consider myself a decent looking guy, but cannot seem to attract anyone with a decent body type who isn't superficial or extremely looks oriented. The girl was a gem among a million, I spent all the years of my teenage life looking for a girl like this, and the beginning of my twenties. I refuse to give up on this, I refuse to move on. There has to be a way, I cannot quit now. I feel like I'm so close. I feel like this is my final solution. I won't wait again for years to find someone even close to her, I cant. I can't go on like this. This was the only girl that was pretty that gave me the time of day.
I'm going to convince my family, as much as I hate to put this on them, them being good people and honest, that this plan is necessary. I am going to have my sister text her on Friday and say that a friend and I were driving, I didn't have my seat belt on, and that I hit my head on the dash. I will have her tell her that she has been trying to reach her the past few days, so that I don't actually need to be in a hospital, but my condition can still be questionable while I am at bed rest. I have done my research and looked at various head related trauma, studies, etc. I know my stuff and what I plan to say, I will work out every detail.
I know that people become closer when they suffer a near death experience. This is my only option, it's the only way I may be able to get her to open up to me again. If it works, I may benefit and receive my happiness again.. if I fail, I don't lose much anyway. There is no reason for me to not do this, it could be so crazy that it might work.. what are your thoughts?