How can I repair the damage and win them back?
My heart is broken in a thousand pieces. After years of frustration with my ex, I finally lost control and denigrated him in front of my children (14 and 16). He was abusive during our marriage and isolated me from my family and friends in the early years and I saw the same pattern developing with how he has been manipulating our children. I acknowledge my contribution to this situation but the children have completely turned against me, even though I KNOW their father has been jading their opinion of me all along. He has taken this situation and manipulated the children to completely turn against me. He has denied access to my children so that now, they are living with him 100% and I will only be allowed to see them every other Sunday for a few hours for dinner. Further, the family counseling I've arranged mustn't interfere with my son's athletic activities - which is just about impossible, given practice occurs most days after school. I also anticipate getting NO information about my son's schedule to make it possible to schedule on the few odd days where there is no practice. I'm in a corner and don't know what to do. I love my kids more than anything else in the world and I feel like they've been ripped from my belly.
What can I possibly do to reconnect with my children?