I really want a baby, my husband and I are very enthusiastic about having one, I baby sited a 6 month old 3 months ago for about a month, it seamed like a never ending story, at the beginning I loved to have him with me, it didn't bother me that I had to wake up in the middle of the night to change his diaper or to feed him, then, it started to get me annoyed, then a started to get crazy and I stopped paying attention to him, he cryied so much that I got to a point where I didn't care anymore, so I just stopped babysitting him.

Since that, I got so afraid that I could have my own and just get crazy or maybe even depressed. My family doesn't help either, they don't want me to get pregnant yet, the usual stuff, I am too young (20), I've been married for almost 1 year now and very happy, don't regret my decision. I really want my own but don't trust myself that I could take good care of my own. Sometimes I think that with my baby will be different because he/she will be mine, not somebody else's, my mom says that too, I love babies!!

Please advice me.

Since you are confused maybe you should wait. It is a big responsibility and you can't just quite. You have your husband to help but you have to be sure that he will help and all.
Sure having your own baby you will most likely feel different but there will still be days you get so stressed you don't know what to do. If you aren't up for it you need for it wait.

You'll be so different with your own it comes naturally,maybe you should put getting pregnant on hold for a while so you can decide when the time is going to be right