We were together for almost 2 years.
We loved each other.
Or at least I loved him.
He was my first love, and yes, he took my virginity.
I kept him at a distance for 6 months, because he hurt me. A lot. I wasn't sure if he was worth it.
Throughout our relationship, he periodically broke up with me, for stupid reasons.
Mostly my friends, because they hated him, and I let them get to me.
We still saw each other though. It was like...we were dating still, but without titles.
Unfortunately, when I finally decided that I did love him, he had found someone else.
No, I never wanted them to break up. I told him that. I told everyone that.
I just wanted him to know that I loved him.
And he let me believe for the next two weeks that he loved me too.
He told me that he would leave her for me. I'm sorry if I was happy about that.
I didn't want to be, but I felt so good being in his arms again.
He played me. He got what he wanted from me, then ditched me.
According to him, I'm fat, ugly, stupid, and easy.
Maybe I am. I must be. I believed him for a ninth time.
He hurt me, for a ninth time.
It's my fault he did it too me though.
Because I loved him too much.
More love then he could imagine.
He lost the best damn thing that he'll ever get.
I don't care what he does, or what his girlfriend does.
I'm sorry if she still sees me as a threat so much that she's still taking it out on my friends. I'm sorry if he felt he needed to do this to me.
I guess, we're even now?
I hope it was worth it.

And then, yesterday...
When did I become the ?
When did I become the "nasty "?
I ing called him to ask if he had a friend's number.
And he threatened to call the cops on me?
Grow up.
Either him, or his .
Since I know it was her.
If he ever threatens me or my niece again, I will call the police on him.
Cause unlike them, we've got more to say than "Oooh, my ex and her niece are being nice to me and needed my help once, I don't like it! Arrest them!"

I just don't understand how a man can go from one night of telling me that he loved me, making plans with me to follow me, no matter where I went for college, and telling me that we were going to get married.
Then the next day calling me all those things and never wanting to talk to me again. I was a little thrown, and really hurt.

Sweetheart, I don't know how old you are and I know you don't want to hear this but, here goes. Just let it go. You cannot control what others do. You can only control your own actions. Do that by realizing that he is simply not the one for you. Take a lesson a move on. You will have another opportunity to put that lesson to use. Be glad that he showed his true colors so early. Don't miss your blessing of another who truly cares for you by harboring over false love. Spend your energy on someone who is worth it.

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I didn't want to be, but I felt so good being in his arms again.
He played me. He got what he wanted from me, then ditched me.

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He played you all right, so did you learn to leave him alone and move on with your life??

Read the stickies in for this forum and get some good suggestions on how to move on.

Yeah that is a pretty bad way to have a relationship end. You are feeling pretty used up right now but the advice is right. Pick up the pieces and move on he ain't worth the tears you cry. And you said it correctly already, "He lost the best damn thing that he'll ever get."

Hold your head up high and regain your dignity.

Believe it or not that this isn't happening TO you...it is happening FOR you. You will understand what I mean someday.