I got dumped by the girl of my dreams in April. I completely scared her away. I was moving way too fast and she left. I became totally obsessed with her. Now the obsession is with me. I think about how I screwed it up and I torture my myself every day. I'm having such a hard time with the regret and it's put me into a bad depression. I have been seeing a therapist since May and it seems like it might be helping a little. But I still have a hard time dealing with what I did. I just can't get the "WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN" out of my mind. I still dream about her all of the time. I think about her all day.
It's starting to really scare me. I know it sounds silly, but I feel like I lost my only true love and I will never love like that again. I have dated several women in the past and never have I felt like this after a breakup. I just feel like my ship came in and I sank it. Now I have left myself to tread water. Will this ever go away?