Originally Posted by Depressed in MO
Hello all. As shameful as I am to write this, I need honest opinions.
Please feel free to move this if it is in the wrong category.
I have three little ones...two are in school. The oldest is 10, and the middle one is 6. They start school in the middle of next week. I still have to get school supplies and school clothes for them. My oldest one has her school supplies, but still needs clothes.
I'm not going to be able to afford it all at once. Please keep in mind I have absolutely no outside support at all. Have I tried to pursue it? Yes. Have I gotten anything? No.
Aside from all that, am I considered to be a bad parent? Or inadequate otherwise? Would it be ok if I buy their supplies now, SOME school clothes, but not all-and then make up for the rest of their clothes when I receive my next paycheck (which is in three weeks from today)?
I know this may sound petty, or not that important, but I am stressing out over it badly, I mean I am sick to my stomach, in a constant worry, I'm losing sleep, I don't want to get up out of bed in the morning, I am just so depressed. I live paycheck to paycheck and take care of all of their needs with nothing left over, but this is just something I cannot take care of all in one paycheck.
As I sit and wonder about it constantly, I realize, maybe if I would have just put a little back here and there and saved some, but I have not ever had this problem. I've always had help in the past somehow or another, but now that I am just their sole provider, it's very difficult and heart breaking for me.
Maybe I am just being a big baby, but my mother was always there for my brother and I, we always had things we needed-I just don't compare to her. And now she is gone.
I am just so depressed and it is making me sick-literally.
Anyway-thank you all for taking the time...
TJ