I had 2 interviews for 2 jobs and both neevr called back! I seriosuly need a job! ALso I feel like people who I thought were my friends are ignoring me and stuff. Plus I get judged because my sister is fat. How is that my fault? But like, when I want to go shopping my isster always goes why do you want that blah blah. If shed was skinny she would be different, she would be the one taking me shopping every now and then. { I'm 16 she is 20}. ANyway smy love life also sucks. Ik can't get over this guy I liked in garde 8 and I'm in garde 12! I am really short like 5'1 and no matter how much I try I doubt I'm gonan get any taller. I just hate everythign about my life! I have nothing to live for anymore. I don't know what to do. I find myself depressed A lot. Like for every smile I smile, I cry 865236542653458 many tears! I also cry myself to slep every day . I honestly don't know what to do, hwo to think, the truth will remain the truth. And I hate the truth in my life!

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First of all I would like to say that we all go through life experiences that seem hard and tough at the time but did you ever think that maybe you need to be patient that the 2 job interviews you have had maybe they are not the right job for you at this time? So what if people judge you because of your sister. Your sister is family and you should not care what anybody thinks about your sister or yourself. You need to change the way your thinking and you need to reach out for help. Talk to a family friend, a doctor, a counselor. Maybe you actually need to be assessed for depression you will not know until you seek help. Coming here your seeking help. There are many help lines. The truth in your life is the truth you are creating for yourself, but it is not the true truth. You do need to do something different and you do need to learn how to think more positive, and you do need to seek out counseling and you are 16... Going through many emotions and hormone changes.

So what if some argent jerk didn't call you back? Get a job somewhere else, you'll be happier there.
You need to spend more time with friends. True friends. You need to find new ones, that you can count on and have pure fun with. People that you can trust and just act goofy with.
You sound really stressed, take a day and listen to some music, do something that you enjoy.
You aren't responsible for your sister.

Well how many places have you applied to for a job, if you are not applying to 6 to 10 places a day, you need to get out there and apply to more.

And in life, if people are "judging" you, they are other kids not worth worry about, as you get older in life, what others think matters little.

I understand what you gyus are saying.
I have applied to a lot of places and I live in a small town. I have been appliing for a job since 1 and a half years. I finally got 2 calls and I didn't get the job. It feels like I've deafeted myself. I have been through so much in life that I only trust my slef. And after not getting the job I kind of feel like I ma unworthy and that I don't deserve it. I let myself down. I noe that my isster is not my responsibility, however when people say stuff like.. " ohh i went to hte mall with my sister n every1 was checking her out , imagine if she was FAT!" or things similar to it. And rite after thye say it.. they look at me! What am I supposed to do? I know its not my fault. And that she is my sister buh I've been going threw that since a while now and it frustrates me because it feels like I don't have my own identity. In my house we hardly have furniture! People always want to come over buh I'm ashamed bcus I've been 2 there ehouses and they have their house like interior decorated! These peole judge so harsh that it hurts. 2 years ago I moved to a different town 45 minutes away form my old place and I new no one in my skool. I had to start all over! It took me 1 year to find ACTAUL friends. I used to be those crazy pppl who always do things with friends always out of the house with friends.. like a social buterfly. And after htat not having any frineds for 1 year sis very harsh! Not only that my other friends started traeting me like iwas from jupiter as if I was not worthy of their friendship. I know that all of these things have build up and made me the weak person I am today, I don't even feel like getiing out of the house. & I can't share anythign with my isser about skool, social life. She always felt rejected because of her weight from her own social life that when I try to talk to her about situations she just acts like.. weird I don't noe how to explain it. She just expects me not tohave a social life either because of her.

Well, you need to stop focusing on everybody else and actually do something to change your way of thinking. Very simply put. You do need counseling. Are you willing to go? It does not matter what situation is going on whether it is your sister or friends or jobs or school. It is up to you how your going to react, it is up to you whether you let other people dictate your life in the way you feel or think. You need to take control and learn how to deal and think better... Only way to do that is to ask for help.

Do you keep a journel? If not, get one and start getting your thoughts out on paper.
16 - why the rush on a job?
These things that happened has not made you weak but you made yourself weak by allowing what others say to hurt you to the point where you retreat and as I said before teenager years are full of ups and downs and hormonal imbalances and some suffer true depression. You need counseling, now are you willing to talk to someone?

My parents would never believe that I need help/ They will just say deal with your ownproblems and they think these problems are not big enuff for help. We r from india our culture is different if I go to counselling everyone will think I'm mental and that would be another rough chapter in my life. I just have to deal with this myself.
Thank-you for ryour help.
Yes. I do have a journal and as you would have probably guessed, its about the same depression I have been in since the past 2 years.
&& I understand that you are saying that I just need to forget what people think and life my life excepting everything and being open to a new day which will bring new light. But I understand these things.. its just that no matte rhow I try not to care, not to worry, not to let it bother me. IT DOES! I am tired I even cut my slef on my legs sometimes because I felel like I'm not supposed to be happy so why should I TRY TO MAKE myself happy? I sound like a mental person. But I am quiet normal, excpet I have mental issues which no matte rhow much I try to not care, my nature makes me care.

You are a normal person. Normal person seeks out help whenever they are overwhelmed...

My parents would never believe that I need help/ They will just say deal with your ownproblems and they think these problems are not big enuff for help. We r from india our culture is different if I go to counselling everyone will think I'm mental and that would be another rough chapter in my life. I just have to deal with this myself.
Thank-you for ryour help.
Yes. I do have a journal and as you would have probably guessed, its about the same depression I have been in since the past 2 years.
&& I understand that you are saying that I just need to forget what people think and life my life excepting everything and being open to a new day which will bring new light. But I understand these things.. its just that no matte rhow I try not to care, not to worry, not to let it bother me. IT DOES! I am tired I even cut my slef on my legs sometimes because I felel like I'm not supposed to be happy so why should I TRY TO MAKE myself happy? I sound like a mental person. But I am quiet normal, excpet I have mental issues which no matte rhow much I try to not care, my nature makes me care.

I can see why you're hurting. I felt like life was playing a cruel joke on me when growing up. I had to move countries, learn english, separate from my close fam, deal with the way my aunt favored her kids, and I'm only 4'11. I cryied myself to sleep for years. I felt like I could trust no one. But it all made me stronger. Who cares if they laugh. They only laughing because they are shallow, weak, afraid. Today I'm in the army and all those tears made me stronger. And remember no matter how hard you try. You can't make everyone happy. Its imposible but you can be the best person you can. Believe in yourself. You can do anything you put your mind to. The skies the limit. The world is much bigger than your home town. I know at 16 is hard to see 'the bigger picture' but every one is right. You're a young lady now and all kind of changes are going on with some guidance you'll be OK. I had a teacher that listen and gave me great advice. She was a true friend. And over the years different people have helped gide and strengthen me just when I though I couldn't bare it anymore. You probably cut yourself to release. That@ least you have can control, but there is no control in losing your health. You have a lot to offer.

Teen years are a very emotional time, emotional ups and downs, hormones raging, peers making one's life hell in some instances. Anyway,.

You have to have many interests in life so when something goes very wrong, you aren't taken down completely into an abyss of despair and feeling sorry for yourself.

How are your parents? Are they able to parent you and help you? You have to get up each morning and get dressed and go out into life and *do something*... or else, you will get depressed. Make sure you talk to a parent about your emotions so they know what is going on with you and guide you. :) Help you.