I recently posted on here regarding my situation..
https://www.askmehelpdesk.com/relati...1149165....and here i am and its driving me more crazy then ever before..i thought it would get better but its not..i tried the NC rule for about 3 weeks then i broke and i texted her telling her i was sorry and wanted to be on good terms..now she just ignores me....so i dunno i'm trying to look at things positively..maybe she isnt ready to face me yet..or maybe she is just trying to forget me all together....i keep dreaming of her every so often and it drives me off the wall..i get the funny feeling in my stomach.. you know what i mean lol...the last thing she told me was Only time will tell..which im not sure what she is referring to but thats all i keep thinking about..being my first love its driving me bonkers and i always sit and wonder it didnt have to be like this..if i just growed some confidence and stop being so insecure..now the regrets just linger in my head day in and day out non stop then ever before..i know everyone says the first love never works or whatever..but its like i knew what i was doing and i still did it anyways and i took it all for granted thinking i was invisible..ugh...what to do what to do!!....i can't get motivated any more for really anything..even if she just said something to me i would a whole lot better and prob could get on with my life..i donttt knowwww....................................