The force I feel every time I'm like this is pulling me deeper, all I want to do know is die, its all I can think about and the worse thing, the thing that makes me feel even more fu*ked in the head is I don't know why. I've got two bottles of red wine in front of me and about 150 500mg ibeprofen. Someone help me before its too late

If your still here... wat is your major problem??
And why do you feel that way?? :s

Just think about this, in 1years time your problems you have now will have probably gone there is nothing you can't overcome. It is such a waste to take your own life, try turning your life around and you will look back on this moment and say 'what the hell was I thinking!! '

I doubt it. I suffer from manic depression and this year is terrible, my gran cat and dogs died, and it'll be the tenth anaversery of my dads suicide and I can't be arsed, I mean. What's the point in living to an old age when all that happens is you die and no one remembers you. More likely than not my life will result in nothing but failer as it started. The only thing I can trully bhope for is to choose when where and how I die.

I'm going to go. I can't do this getting help . All that people will think is a cry for attention anyway, all ill get is mlore proof that there's no point living. Truth be told I died long ago.

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Originally Posted by darkalliance

im gonna go. i can't do this getting help . all that ppl will think is a cry for attention anyway, all ill get is mlore proof that theres no point living. truth be told i died long ago.

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You have a daughter right... u want to leave her feeling like you do or you want to make sure your there to stop her when she's feeling like you are... im not saying to go to docs and/or medicine... I know for sure those don't work... its all a mentality situation that is not your fault but you have to take contro over them...

Before you even consider this course of action I strongly recommend you read this: What Can Ibuprofen Overdose Do To You?

Ibuprofen as a manner of harming yourself will not work in the way you are thinking.

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Consequences of Ibuprofen overdose: According to research institutes, Ibuprofen overdose damages your internal organs like liver. While in some cases it has been reported that it has result in a permanent liver damage, in other cases where the victim was taking the dose for a long and continued period it has resulted in organ failure one by one.

Some more side effects are unsteadiness, blurred vision, ringing in the ears, gastrointestinal, nausea plus vomiting, diarrhea, stomach pain, probable loss of blood in intestinal areas or stomach or both, headache, agitation, drowsiness, incoherence and confusion etc. Sometimes more serious symptoms are also noticed in some victims though very rare such as seizure, gastrointestinal bleeding, metabolic acidosis, respiratory depression, hyperkalaemia, tachycardia, atrial fibrillation, coma, hepatic dysfunction, renal failure, cyanosis, and cardiac arrest etc. Until and unless the victim is allergic to ibuprofen, there is a slim chance that the victim would die from Ibuprofen Overdose.

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This will be EXTREMELY painful and will most likely end up with your being sectioned under the Mental Health act as a mental patient.

So what? That's nothing, many people in the world are way way worse off. I think deep down you don't really want to die its just your emotions speaking due to where you are in your life now. What you need to do is start taking a more positive perspective on life in general and don't let the little things get you down.

If you don't want to die a failer then bloody do something about it!! Stop wingeing about how bad your life is. Set some Goals read some self help books - I recommend Tony Robbins. There is so much you can do with your life why waste it all cause you feel bad at the moment?

Now think about what I've just said. Don't reply with some stupid excuse, just do something about turning your life around.

Be honest with yourself - its not really that bad is it?

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Originally Posted by darkalliance

i doubt it. i suffer from manic depression and this year is terrible, my gran cat and dogs died, and it'll be the tenth anaversery of my dads suicide and tbh i can't be arsed, i mean. whats the point in living to an old age when all that happens is you die and no one remembers you. more likely than not my life will result in nothing but failer as it started. the only thing i can trully bhope for is to choose when where and how i die.

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You can't tell me that you have had no childhood dreams or any thing that you wanted to do... anything is possible if you believe it, the end of life is not a problem, its easy to give up, I can't believe that you can't find an good thing in this life or even today, your dads suicide is nothing to honor, or keep track of, it's a tragedy for you and its somehting that is needed to be gotten over, you can't be stuck in others mistakes and/or choices, have hope at least for today that tomorrow will be better than today... :)

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Originally Posted by darkalliance

i doubt it. i suffer from manic depression and this year is terrible, my gran cat and dogs died, and it'll be the tenth anaversery of my dads suicide and tbh i can't be arsed, i mean. whats the point in living to an old age when all that happens is you die and no one remembers you. more likely than not my life will result in nothing but failer as it started. the only thing i can trully bhope for is to choose when where and how i die.

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You said what's the point of living to an old age if no one remember you anyway? Well, you remember your Dad, don't you? His suicide must have been horrible for you, and it seems like you haven't completely healed from that incident. The way you feel about your Dad killing himself, that's how the people who love you will feel if you do. Think about that, suicide doesn't only hurt the person committing the act, but everyone around them.

It takes allot of strength to hang on, fight and get help, are you strong? I think you are, you found your way here, you obviously want some help. Get some!

We're here if you need to talk, but you need to see a professional who can help you deal with this.

I wish you all the best, and please, please, don't do it!

It's been a couple of days, but here is some help.

When you get like this, go outside and run/walk for an hour or more, cry and get your emotions out.

Turn around and walk home.

You'll feel better. :)