:confused: I don't know why I am here I have gone to school work had kids but and know I have 3 days before I have to be out of my apt and with know were to go I feel like I am already 6 feet under I really don't know what to do if I should just jump are just try to keep going Becoues right now I don't won't to be here... :(

Welcome to the club. There are many of us who dread facing another day. Myself, I am in constant pain from injuries received 5 years ago. Pain management is not always effective and some days it's hard to be me. However, removing myself from this place loses my family's income. My wife could not keep the home we have or provide for herself. You mentioned children. They are your responsibility, no matter what.

Somehow, you need to find the strength to do whatever you must to provide what you can to those you are responsible for. Bad things and times happen to people who don't deserve to suffer. They say we must suffer as Christ suffered for us. I don't subscribe to that theory, but I know suffering is a part of living. Besides, one must stick around if only to see what can happen next.

I do know that now is not forever. Things change. Taking yourself out is forever and will not change. Stick around and fight for a while. Things might change for the better. I certainly hope so.

I wish you well, and I do care about you.

Dear Sweet Carolyn,

Oh how I was in that dark place that you are now, only difference is, I don't have children.
Let their hearts pull you through this.

This is a challenge to you - to find a place and you will, you will find a place and imagine
How awesome you will feel that you didn't give up, that you reached with all your might and overcame this great difficulty.

We don't have to know you to actually care, because we all do. We've all been where you are in one way or another, and relied on ourselves and the love we have for others to rise above the struggles.

Oh I know you must be so tired of all the struggles and when will they end. But they will, and you will be so proud of yourself for getting through, and the delight that you will have, that your beautiful children, can still call out for Mommy. Be there for them, and be there for yourself.

You are cared for indeed.

I would like to Thank You... Just sitting here I have put it away and I have cryed out and if you are the words God needs me to here I HERE YOU!!
THANK YOU
THANK YOU
THANK YOU
Time to move on...

I'm glad you feel better! *hugs* Everyone goes through bad days. I'm going through some pretty rough ones now myself. We just have to hang in there and know that things will get better in time! :)