What about the mouse in my kitchen?
Hello, to this community. I am a female construction worker and I have much experience with life as most of us do. I am feeling really lucky lately, so I thought I'd share something very unexpected that has happened to me. A man who is very intelligent and interesting is spending time with me.
He has kind beautiful eyes. He is gentle and concerned about the people around him. He is well regarded for his opinion. He is loved. He has a mouse in his house now and then, and so do I.
I am afraid to look at him because I know. I know. I know I just can't. So I glance at him from time to time just to see if I am correct. His arms. His nose. His length. He is real. It is real what I feel when I look at him. I just know so I remind myself that I have time. Stay in the now, don't worry about forever. Now feels good. Now feels great. I ask myself, "Now what do I do?!" Maybe I should just stay away from him. But I know I won't. Cant. Won't allow myself. Can't resist him. Its intimate. Its intense. Its both. Its perfect.
I will make a fortune working since now I have to keep really really busy so not to collapse myself into this. I want to hold onto him so bad. I've got to work... physical labor. Work. Work to burn energy. All of a sudden I have this energy, but I don't want to run I want to stay. I want to stay. What is it about him?
I watched him contemplating tonight. I know he is thinking about me too. Sizing me up. Wish he would just hug me. Just hug me. Hug me. Fear cropped in
"What if he doesnt?" I stayed in the now.
There's that mouse in my kitchen again. What was I ever thinking with those other guys? Wow. I feel really good about him. I won't even utter a word. He will know by my eyes how I feel when I see him again.
So how do I get rid of that itty bitty cute little mouse in my kitchen without wrecking my Karma and messing up this totally great thing I have going on with this awesome really sexy smokin' guy?