Back in April my boyfriend and I of over a year broke up. He broke up with me because he was struggling in his life and he didn't feel like he could be the guy he needed to be with me. Time has revealed that this was the real reason and that he wasn't giving me any bull. About a month later he came around telling me he regretted breaking up with me and that he was getting his life together and wanted to make things work with me. I told him at first that I would. Now, I am a very devout Christian and I am always seeking the will of God in my life. So, soon after telling him I would make things work I felt God calling me to something different. So I told this guy that I couldn't make things work because God has other things planned. Now I am in a different state and I am leading kids in a youth group. I never expected id be here, it amazing. Him and I have talked on and off since I left and we decided that it was deffinetly best to not make things work because when I go home at the end of the summer I have a full load for school and must get my GPA up in order to get into the nursing program. The summer has passed and I just hate having to choose between the guy I thought I would spend my life with and my dream of being a nurse. I want to be able to find a balance. Just the other night I told him this, that I wanted that balance. I got a reaction I didn't expect. He said he needed to think and pray about it and he got off the phone very quick. At this point I am so very anxious and I don't know what to do. Should I message him or call him at all? Or should I just leave him to his thoughts and prayers and not try to sway him with my words? I really want to message him and make him realize that that chance he wanted is now here... but I don't know...

I would wait. Wait until you can sit down and have a serious discussion about your futures and where you want to go in life. I always had dreams of being where you are joining a mission and going to school for something and doing something with my life but I never got the chance because I don't have the resources to accomplish anything. I regret it because I can't follow my dreams. If he is meant to be with you then he will find a way to fit into your dreams somehow without you having to have it an either or.
Also many people will say they believe in God and they pray but they haven't got a clue so don't fall for that as a sign or meant to be or anything.

Get out of the way, and let God handle it.