At school I'm a good student with a gpa 0f 3.7. The teacher and students think I'm a feeble,frail and somewhat of a protectorate. Well they are certainly wrong, I may appear that but in reality I'm a malevolent being. Also I spend most of my day alone in my room.I hate being seem as a weak little girl who needs people.At home I beat up my little brother and scream at my cocker spaniel, while I pretend to be a prefect angel in front of my parents. I'm in love with rage because of the power it gives me.I'm a asexual and a Misanthropic minanachrist. I hate society and I hate social groups. I have no friends nor do I care to have any. I hate how soceity expects you to want to be a drone and what to contribute to it. The truth is I like causing destruction to people. I also worship people like Pekka-Eric Auvine and Eric Harris,I also want to date them. E truth of the matter is that I want to destroy society and become a dictator.When I'm dictator, I would love to bring destruction and suffering to people. And then I would truly be a goddess, that I known I always was.I also have anger issues. Human life to me is stupid and meaningless.I want to be a humanoid or a goddess( or something above human and human

Hello happyprincess, your handle is an oxymoron you know.

I feel sorry for you.

OK OK OK, I think you have some issues, a lot of them. Wanting to cause pain to people is not good, acting like a perfect angel in front of parents/teachers but beating up your little bropther and yelling at your dog is not good either. And frankly wanting be a dictator who can cause pain to other so you can be a goddess that is also pretty bad.
Not liking social groops isn't bad. But the rest of the stuff in my opinion is bad. I think you should talk to someone about this, like your parents tell them what you told us, if you want to, but I think you really need to tell youir parenst the truth about how you feel, instead of pretending to be someone different for them.
Hope this helps,
Ps "yeah you have anger issues"

Usually people who hate so much are miserable with themselves and project it on others
You really should find a good counselor to talk to.

Well, good luck with that and let us know how it works out. /sarcasm

How much criticism are you looking for today?

I guess, I really want help

Hurting others is far easier than helping them. Hate them all you want, but give yourself a challenge.

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Originally Posted by happyprincess

I guess, I really want help

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The kind of help you need can only be found in a professional.

The statements you made, are so far out of bounds for a normal well adjusted individual that I truly believe that if you meant what you said, you should be seeing a professional starting say, five years ago.

You certainly don't lack in intelligence, your vocabulary is incredible for a young person and you express your thoughts, as sad as they are, very eloquently.

Have you expressed any of these thoughts to your parents, or any adult who may be close to you?

That would be a good start, since you will probably need the assistance of your parents to seek a good professional to work with.

I do feel sorry for you, you really do need some help, professional help for sure.

Well something tells me this is more like a goal or a fantasy than reality; something you want to be, not something you are. If you really hated society you wouldn't be on a message board wanting society's input. If you are somewhere around 14 or 15, that is the age I started hating the world and everyone in it. Then I grew up (and the hormones cranked down) and realized that if I really thought life was stupid and meaningless I wouldn't want to keep living it. Life is what you make of it. You can DECIDE to feel the way you feel right now, everything you wrote, or you can DECIDE that you want to prove life has value. You can decide how you feel.
Maybe you will grow out of this, maybe this is something you feel strongly about and will choose to never grow out of. But either way, you're living this life. Find something to do with it that gives it a purpose if you feel life inherently comes without purpose.
I don't think you have anger issues that are permanent, if you have any at all. I do however wish you the best of luck in deciding the road you'll take from here. And remember, you can always pick a different road at any time. You don't have to live forever making the same decision you made today.

First of course I doubt if your post is true and you are merely a bored teen having fun at everyone's expense. But if it is true you need to get professional help

happyprincess
Like I have said you have to be open with youir feelings, all right I'll confess when I was younger I would pull my sisters hair and punch her and call her names, it made me feel powerful, and like I had controle. But then I realized what I was doing, iw was causing her pain, and I realized that I was not as cool as I thought I was, it didn'y make me powerful it made someone I didn't want to be, or even be in the same room with. I changed though I decided that I had issues and I had to deal the issues another way.
Now think about it. Do you want to be this person? Do you want to feel the way you feel? Do want this? Pretend your someone else for a second. And look at you. Want do you see?
Its time for YOU to decide what YOU want.