Me and my boyfriend have been dating for a year, he was the first person in the relationship to say I love you, it took me a while and I believed him.
I am still young but have been treated badly by boys before, and grew suspicious of them, so when I met my boyfriend and he seemed different from the other guys, I said yes to dating.
But then I realised that he lied a lot about the smallest things and never wants to go out clubbing with me, however I grew to love him so much I can't decide whether I'm over reacting about certain things or I should leave him, but worried about how I will cope because I suffer slight depression.
I feel like right from the beginning he realised that he had a good deal with me, and started guilting me into doing stuff by saying things like "your my girlfriend" I'm supposed to do these things.
When he has no money I'm the first person he comes to, I feel like the only time he needs me is when he needs money to go out and buy alcohol and cigarettes,or sex and if his friends are not around. We used to have a good time together, but now its starting to get me down and we just argue constantly. As soon as he gets money, he finds it difficult to pay me back despite the fact I'm just as poor as him because we are both students and I always waste my money making sure both of us eat. When he gets his money, he forgets about me and buys alcohol and cigarettes and spends all his time hanging around his friends until he gets horny.
He never wants to go out clubbing with me, even though its like once a month and it won't kill him. He says that I'm pushing him yet he wants me to meet his parents and get married, who is pushing who. He does not seem to care that for me to have a good time I have to go out with other male friends because I get on better with guys, sometimes it would be nice to go and have fun with him, instead of our relationship being based on going from one house to the next or going down the shops.
When I tell him how I feel about things, he tells me he has no feelings and that I should not think about my feelings. Just tells me to stop whining and complaining. The other day he came over because he was extremely drunk and had the munchies, we had an argument and he said he hated me. He is always finding something about me that disgusts him, though he always finds things about me that he says he loves but these bad things are clouding my mind. He is different from guys I have been with before because he comforts me, he's funny, good with my family and friends and other things I love about him he boosts myself esteem constantly, he tells me he loves me more than I do him because I find it difficult to say :confused: :confused: but I don't know if he's better either.
