I am just coming out of a domestically abusive relationship and was getting therapy for myself. I have a baby with my ex husband (who I ended the relationship with because of his drug addiction and violence) This happened when my baby was 4 months old. Since then I have bounced back to who I think I am. However my behavior displays different. Since August I have gotten personal ads on websites and have had one night stands with 5 people. This is not who I thought I was. I don't want a relationship but I want to have sex and not see them. Then number 5 wanted more and it threw me into a great confusion, feeling guilt for just enjoying the sense and as he says misleading him. We have great sex but I am not physically attracted to him in many ways. I see him in secret, not telling family or therapist. I tend to lie to the therapist, everything is fine when they are in front of me. Can anyone help me to understand what is happening here.

You're paying good money to the therapist, what's the point of lying to them? They are a trained professional and in a unique position to help you.

Print out the post you wrote above and show it to your therapist next session. You're paying for the session, why not get your money's worth?

U are depressedmbecause of your divorce. And its better if you can be more outspoken. It helps. And everything you say to your therapist is confidencial. He is the only person in the world that no's about your problems. Just talk to him about your problems and wats going on and trust me you will feel a lot better.

Your looking for love in all the wrong places, with all the wrong people, for all the wrong reasons.

You really need to learn to love yourself.