Hello
I recently had a relationship end after 3 years... I caused it to be honest as I was far too controlling she was much younger than me and trust was an issue as well.. I could trust her but not guys her age...
To be honest the thing was doomed from the start
But she was an amazing and wonderful girl who really had enough of me so I don't actually want her or this relationship back again.. no way at all.. I do however want to get through the hurt of missing her so much
I know it probably more 'habit' than anything she was there for 3 years
Now everything reminds me of her smells music... so many stupid things too...
Even when I look at guys her age it depresses me because I think she will end up with someone like that
She has told me recently to back off and not contact her again which is what I want to do but some days its so hard...
I wonder what she is doing who she is with... it kills me...
Anyone saying it will pass is exactly right but its hurting so much at the moment
I want to email her and talk to her I want to know what she is doing but I don't because it may hurt too much
I also feel she doesn't care or miss me in any way... am I right to think like this?
I so want to move on... I just want my life back the way it was before I met her
I want her to be happy too but... not yet... is that making sense?
What can I do
Please help
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