I don't know why I feel this way
OK I hope when you guys read this you wount judge me in any bad way but there's something really bothering me... there's this one girl who I'm so jelous of and I don't know why... I feel pathetic saying this but it's the truth. I'm going to tell you guys the whole story of how this all started... so if you take the time to read this and comment back id really appreciate it. But anyway this girl sadly to say is my cousin she's really pretty ill admit. And I've found that a lot of guys like her over me and I know that's reality there's always someone prettier than you but... I don't know why I wish I knew but she really gets to me. I hate it so much because I'm always worrying if the guy I like will like her over me... which it usually happens... :( or I'm always worrying if shell try and take him... cause I don't trust her anymore which sucks so bad because when we were growing up we used to be really close but now its completely different we still get along but watever... I hate feeling this way because I'm giving her all this credit and she just keeps lowering my confiedne lower and lower... I hate feeling this way is something wrong with me... why does everyone like her over me... I thought I was just as pretty as her... but I guess I'm not I just really wish she didn't get to me so much... I hope someone can give me advice on this and there true opinion if you would id really appreciate it thank you