I have been through a hard life and I find the biggest problem that I have is letting go of things that have happened and I constintly dwell on them and it brings me down and makes me treat a lot of people bad. I'm only 18 and the loses and the pain that I have been through is a lot for me to deal with on top of working school and have a social life and a girlfriend. I sit there and dwell on things that I no I can't change. It bothers me that I cant.

I too have been through a lot. Crappy childhood, dad's suicide, soldier hubby getting shot, losing a granddaughter... Life is tough, sweetie. All we can do is what we can to live through it. I'm not telling you what to do but it might help if you had a reason to just get out as much as you can, even if it's just for a long walk. I was in my mid-twenties when I got sick of feeling like all the time. I thought, enough is enough! I got some books and began to read about how I could make my life better. You posted so I take it you have a computer and net access. Get on the net and look for ways to improve the quality of your life. There are some good forums out there where you can share your crap life with others and get some help and good advice. Sometimes just posting about it helps. Take care of you, and do some reading. It doesn't have to be like this.