I think I'm so ugly.. all the things you don't want I have. I'm probably like 5.6 5.7 168 pounds.im not the smartest I swear there's something my parents are hiding from me like that I'm half retarded. I always get called ugly and people say they kiddin. I look in the mirror and I feel like I'm looking at shrek or an ogre. I've been called an ogre from friends before but they say they kiddin. I'm not happy at all with the person I am. I've came to the point were I don't like looking in the mirror if I do I just stare and get depressed. I don't even like getting pictures of myself.I have chubby cheeks and my rents say its gentics and I can never get rid of it witch I hate. But yet my brothers don't have it. I'm 19 years old look 16 or 15 and even feel like I'm that age.I don't have a jaw line or I do but you can't even see it. I probably have like no chin to. I wish I could go on extreme make over. If I could win the lotto I would get a lot of things changed. I say that to my mom and she just thinks ill never be happy and awalys want smoething changed so doesn't even listen to me when I'm down anymore because she says she's sick of it.so I really have no one to talk to.ive been running hitting the gym and stuff trying to cut weight but I still don't think that change my appearance. Everyone says its genetics and ill never be defined the way I want to be. I work with my dad and people always like wow you look like your dad. And he always says you poor bas t ard laughing. So in other words he knows he's ugly and so am I. just makes me depressed many times I've thought about the question. What is the point.. what do I have to live for. My dog... my mom and dad.. I feel like ill never get a girl friend and have a family of my own. I simply just wish I wasn't me and always lay in bed all comfy wishing I could lay there for ever and not wake up