I was just wondering if there are other people who feel dead inside? I feel that maybe there have just been too many disappointments and my heart has given up. I feel like I'm on anti-depressants but I'm not, but the feelings seemed to just have disappeared. All except the anger of course, but even stuff that used to infuriate me just slightly annoy me now. I sit here and wonder if this is a temporary protective measure for my heart or if I will never feel love, happiness, or closeness again? Is this apathy? Am I wanting too much? Shopping doesn't even make me smile anymore :(

Cheer up! I think it is just something you are going through.I went through the same thing once myself.. it lasted about 3 months.Sometimes we just get overloaded with things that go wrong in our lives.. like the saying goes "When it rains it pours". I believe you will feel better,when you least expect it.

Is it a case of just "cheer up"?

Not just a case of cheer up,just a time in your life that will pass.And it will.Just try to take things one day at a time.Try to look at things as the glass have FULL. Don't be so hard on yourself either. I think sometimes if we stress out about the bad things happening in our lives they it tends to make it all seem worse then it is! Have a girls night out,maybe that will bring some spirit back in!
Try it.. you never know:)

Gail Sheehy wrote a book called "Passages" a number of years ago; I'm reminded of life's passages by your question.

You may be in a passage between two periods in a woman's life. One of the most difficult times is when our old dreams die leaving us empty inside while we readjust our lives for the next stage. When dreams such as the dream of romantic love or the dream of a Cinderella ending come to a close in the face of reality, that is very, very difficult emotionally.

The main thing is not to fill up the emptiness with alcohol or pills, or any potentially destructive habit.

You may be in the place where it is just the real you looking at four walls. In my opinion, that is fine, an excellent place to start the next phase of your life with your feet on the ground.

I seriously recommend that you have a confidant who can help you work this out, like a good therapist. Having a specific life change to work on, this would be short term therapy.

In closing, I think when you work through this transition, you will find that your ability to give and receive love is even more satisfying than before. Don't despair at all. :)

Best wishes,

Thank you both.
Choux, your post definitely struck whatever chord I have left. Some days I wish I hadn't been such a bookworm when I was a child. The books always had a happy resolved ending, I should have gotten my butt kicked in a sport instead. It would have prepared me better for "the real world" whatever that is, if such a thing exists.

I hear you...

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Originally Posted by nevadagirl77

I was just wondering if there are other people who feel dead inside? I feel that maybe there have just been too many disappointments and my heart has given up. I feel like I'm on anti-depressants but I'm not, but the feelings seemed to just have disappeared. All except the anger of course, but even stuff that used to infuriate me just slightly annoy me now. I sit here and wonder if this is a temporary protective measure for my heart or if I will never feel love, happiness, or closeness again? Is this apathy? Am I wanting too much? Shopping doesn't even make me smile anymore :(

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You are exactly like me... I feel exactly how you described. I sometimes wonder if this is a sign that life isn't worth it anymore. I don't even feel close to my close friends anymore. I don't feel anything except anger like you said. And if I do feel happy its for a couple of seconds and then its gone for weeks. Ive felt this way for over half a school year (about 4 months) and its getting worse. At least I know I'm not alone.

Hi both of you guys, I`m afraid it really doesn`t get better...
With me it started the first year after school, it`s crazy I can`t take it any more-you start having suicidal thoughts and really can`t figure anything out any more cause you don`t feel like it any more, all your motivation disappears more and more as this emptiness increases-I don`t enjoy company from people any more either, it`s like nothing any one says even means anything, it`s just a bunch of jibbery garbage being tossed from one mouth to the next, I don`t have motivation to get pout of bed at morning, there`s just no point any more... I wish I could kill myself without any consequences, see that's the only reason I don`t do it, here`s nothing down here that interests me at all... it happened because my exciting lifestyle had to come to an end when coming to a small little town wher5e I now live, it`s like these people are retarted or something, I hate them, and I can`t see they like me any way, I`m soooo depressed and it`s just getting worse, I went back to the city a while ago, thought the excitement would reactivate my spirit-guess what it didn`t happen, even those things now seem pointless and I feel like I could just close my eyes and disappear... this is depression by the way, it`s bad... you two I wish you good luck..!