Hi. I am an addict and until recently I was clean for 2 years. This relapse is really doing me in. I am financilly screwed, emotionally and spiritually broke. I t started when my husband left ddue to his relapse. I am so frigging lonely and making it worse because I am isolating so I can use. I used to live in a city and was really into NA but now live in a small town where there is literally NO recovery. I feel trapped here because I am paying off a house here and have a lot of responsilities. I just want to get my life back again.

Please get help even if it means going into a rehabilitation clinic. You deserve better in your life than to be an addict. The internet can help a lot because you will be able to locate clinics and centers that are close to you.
Good Luck and remember an addiction will TAKE you no where but down.

Thank you. I know all this. I have been an addict for 18 years. I have been able to put some clean time together here and there. And I know life is so much better when I am clean. Thank you again.

When we recover it is always one day at at a time, and you are doing great, one relaspe in two years is almost unheard of. So you start a new one day at a time NOW. Also check with social services. Or with your local pastor. I was living in a town of 5000 and they had one NA and 2 AA meetings each week. So most small towns have them, if not normally one in the town next. Most of the NA meetings in small towns normally happen at local churches in the evenings or weekend.