I miss my dad so mucdh I'm sixteen now I just turned sixteen and me and my dad used to be so close but... he would hit my mom and cheat on her and me growing up I saw all that and as I was getting older I started to understand everything and I started to speak up. I told my dad I hated him because I love my mom so much with all my heart and to see someone hit her it hurt more than anything I use to cry my eyes out... after I said that to my dad we just stopped talking even though he still lived in the same house its hard for me to forgive but I've forgave my dad... but he just wount forgive me... we fell apart when I was like thirteen. He don't live with me and my mom anymore he has a job where he has to travel this has been going on for like eight months now he still comes and visits... barely at all. I miss him so much I've never told him in person that I'm sorry but I've wrote it in fathers day cards and everything I just told him a few months ago that I love him before he left again.. he told me he loved me too that was the first time us saying that to each other in as long as I can remember. But now him and my mom are falling apart they still talk on the fone all the time but hardly at all. And I'm just so afraid me and him are going to loose contact all togheter I need my dad but I just don't think he realizes that. Sometimes I think he feels like he's better off without me. And I always feel like he don't even want to claim me as his daughter... I don't know what to do.
