I can't get my Ex-girlfriend out of my head
Over a year ago I started going out with my now ex. At first things were fine, we talked on the phone for a couple of hours and see each other on a regular basis. Eventually it came to a point where I can say I honestly fell in love with her. After knowing each other for a couple of years before hand and a year of relation ship, I gave her my first time. I was in a state where I would have been ready to commit to her. But at one point I just started needing my own space to be able to have friends, and she couldn't understand why. It was never really a problem, just that she had begun to keep my on the phone or with her longer and longer. I enjoyed it, but there's only so much time a person can stand to be on a phone :/
Long story short she came very close to cheating on me in the last month of our relationship, but I was too stupid to understand that it wasn't her fault, that this guy was trying to force her too after I went back and read some of the letters she sent me. I had told her that we had to call it quits for now. It tore me apart, but I thought it was necessary.
After more month of being separated from her all together she got involved with someone else. After a year of telling me how difficult it would be for her to continue another relationship if she broke up, I felt wronged, lied to. And the worst part of the pain was I knew the guy.
I had pushed her out of my head until recently, when she called me up trying to find up if she could get some of the gifts she gave me back. I told her I didn't have them, I had gotten rid of them after we broke up. But this brought all my memories back, the ones I thought I pushed away forever. And now I just can't get her out of my head. I want to talk to her to find out everything. Everything I need to know, but I just don't know how much I want from the conversation and now I feel like I miss her to no ends and it's killing me.
What should I do..
Guess that sums it up in as short as possible
