Ask Me Help Desk - 14 and very depressed

Hi, I'm 14 years old, my entire life I was bullied and teased on because of my moms mental disability. I didn't have the normal childhood, because I was separated from my parents a lot. My elementary years we're teriable, I lost my best friend because of his traggic death, and I was madly depressed and what was worst, people still teased me. Now I lock myself up in my room, I spend most of my day having suicidal thoughts, and then dealing with my dad and he yells and screams and I cry. I've been missing a lot of school lately because everyone hates me and I have no friends and no life, whenever I go to school, I get bullied and its worst because the high school I go to are the old kids who use to bully me, and now the whole school knows about my moms mental disablilty. My dad just got a letter from my princeaple saying I'm failing all my classes, and is near of being exspelled from the semester. I can't handle anything, I have way too much suicidal thoughts, and I need help before I loose it and kill myself.

Hey! Your going to be OK.

Hi there... I'm really glad you came on here to talk about this and I feel really bad for you. The people who tease you about your mom are not worth a single sad emotion except for you to feel sorry for their soulless hearts.
Losing someone is a really difficult thing too, and we have a bereavement section here on help desk where you can talk about that with others who also are battling grief & suicidal thoughts.
You need someone to talk to, and you have me... And you have the entire family of AMHD (Ask me help desk) to talk to anytime.
I have reached lows in my life that had me laying on the floor, and I've been there feeling hopeless and doomed. That's not how it will stay if you make a decision to stop letting your history path your future. You have to figure out what you can do to make things better. Have you ever talked to your dad? It sounds like you really need some support.
You need to make some changes in your life! You need to get out and find something that makes you happy! Your 14, your just a kid. Depression is a mental virus, without treatment you will only get more depressed. What makes you happy? What is something you like to do? Is there someone you get along with and can talk to?
I'm really taken by your question. The way you worded it, the maturity & intellect are clearly there and that tells me you can pull out of this. Do you have any brothers or sisters? Lots of questions... Sorry.

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Originally Posted by Greg Quinn

Depression is a mental virus

Be careful here. OP must realize that they are not sick in the head. They have done nothing wrong, it's important to remember that.

Do you have any relatives who live far away who will accept you living with them? Make a fresh start with a loving family.

I'm sorry that stupid people at school are teasing you. It really bothers me when people tease others, it's a waste of time and those people who are usually teasing have something in their life that sux! Your life doesn't suck, your mom is ill and that's not something to be ashamed. Not that you are. I want you to try to keep your chin up because high school will end and you can still have friends, just not people like them. Don't let those people get to you. I know its hard, and yes you should try talking to your dad. Is he an understanding person? Having suicidal thoughts is a hard to talk about, especially to your parents. I know this... If you dad doesn't listen, come back on here to talk. Please don't act out your depressive thoughts. Everything will soon pass and things will get better. Even if you believe that or not. Just hang in there =)